Circle Of Hurt

If there comes another lifetime, I'll find you, If there's really another life after this, I'll definitely make sure to find you..." Those words wouldn't stop ringing in her head continuously as if they're put on repeat.

Her grip on the duvet tightens, so as her head keeps on shaking from one side to the other on the pillow it's laid on.

"No...no...don't" She kept on murmuring, her eyes tightly shut with beads of tears strolling down from her face to her already dampen neck, some sweats already gathered and settled on her occiput.

"Please...no..." Her face squeezes more so as it produces tears with her breathing intensifying.

One could tell she was having a terrible nightmare.

"And when I do, I promise to remember you first, When we do meet again, I promise to love you first..." The words continued sounding loudly in her head nonstop getting her more agitated.

"Please...please don't...don't..." She whimpers out with shivering voice.

"So, wait for me...wait for me..."

"Wait...you have to wait..."

"Wait..."

"No...no...no..." She began to cry out loudly, her body shaking vigorously on the bed so as her breath seizing.

"MOKEE! MOKEE!! WAKE UP!!! GET BACK TO YOUR SENSES MOKEE!!!" A pair of hands began shaking her on the bed, trying to wake her up however, she keeps on gasping for breath like someone who would give up any minute soon. Alerted, the person waking her up put more pressure shaking her and her voice grew louder.

"WAKE UP YOU CRAZY B*TCH!!! YOU CAN'T GIVE UP! WAKE UP MOKEE PLEASE!!!!" She gave her a punch on the face out of desperation and strangely, that seems to work. Mokee let out a long breath with her eyelids flying open.

"Hey! Are you okay? Are you alright, look at me. Mokee are you back to your senses??" The lady bombard her with questions immediately she rose back to consciousness. Mokee slowly rotates her eyeballs to her and on seeing her, she bursts into more tears.

"Nana!!!" She cried out sitting up and throwing her arms around her.

"It's okay...it's going to be okay...you're fine" Nana assured patting her back slowly while Mokhee only cries more on her shoulder.

After stroking her back for a while, Nana pulled away from the hug cupping Mokee's wet face.

"What happened, I thought you stopped having this dream?" Nana questioned concerned. Mokee only shook her head in confusion.

"I don't know...I don't know also, I don't know why I'm suddenly having it again, I don't know why this is happening again I don't f**king know why I am...I am.." She gasps, choking on her tears.

"Hey, calm down...it's okay. It's alright...you'll be fine hmm?" She hugs her again and sighs.

"What could have trigger this...it's been long, what could have been the cause of you having this attack again?" Nana sighs deeply.

Mokee disengage and held Nana's hand.

"What is wrong with me, why...why is this happening to me, you must know since you're a psychologist uh??" Mokee asked with desperation.

Nana sighs.

"Do you still not remember any faces?" She asked. Mokee shook her head indicating a 'No'

"I can only hear their voices, I can only hear their screaming...their painful screams...the pains...the...argh!" She places her hand on her heart.

"My heart hurts, it hurts so much...I'm in pains Nana...please save me...please..." She says with her voice cracking.

"SNAP OUT OF IT ALREADY MOKEE!" Nana grip her shoulders.

"Listen to me, there are no voices anywhere, there's no pain...you are fine okay? Trust me, you'll be" She assured her again. Mokee slowly nodded.

"Now I want you to catch your breath slowly, breathe in" Nana took a breath in gesturing to her to do the same.

Mokee also took a breath in as she says.

"Then out...slowly" Nana let out a breathe and Mokee did also.

"Now do that five times" Nana commanded and Mokee did.

"Good. There's no cause for alarm. You're fine"Nana smiles. Mokee let out a reliving breath, unlike five minutes ago, she has calmed down and she could feel her nerves relaxing.

She sniffs in and sweep her hair up.

"What's the time?" She quizzed.

"Prolly past 10" Nana replied simply, Mokee eyes went wide rather on hearing that.

"WHAT!! Pas...past what!"

"10. The last time I checked it was 9:45 and that was before I took my bath, choose my dress, apply make up and came to your room to wake you up but then I saw you on the verge of death and with my amazing skills I revived you" Nana replied tauntily.

"You crazy lady!" Mokee pushed her away sharply from the bed making her fall to the floor.

"Ah!" Nana yelp at the sudden push while Mokee sprang from the bed to the wardrobe pouring out the clothes there on the bed.

"I have a f**king audition by 11 and you're just waking me up!!" She yelled as she goes through her wardrobe like a crazy woman.

"Wow! Now it's my fault you overslept uh! You should be thanking me for saving your damn ass this morning, if I hadn't been here you would prolly be having an audition in the pit of hell right now you crazy bitch!" Nana yelled back at her.

"You...you had some drinks last night didn't you, you came home totally wasted. What sane woman get drunk a night before she has an audition, only an insane woman like you does!" Nana added.

"Yesterday was my pay day how can I not drink? Those f**king debtors collected every dime from me!!!" She threw some clothes at her then march into the bathroom hurriedly.

"What a f**king pain she is seriously!" Nana huffs marching out of the room also.

In speed, Mokee did everything she is to do and within three minutes, she was dressed up already, speeding out of her room.

"I'm making some hangover soup, have it before you leave" Nana said from the kitchen.

"Do I look like I have time for that! I'm so f**king late!" Mokee replied searching the living room frantically, she seems to be looking for something.

"Where the f**k is it! Hey have you seen my phone anywhere??" She asked.

"You prolly dropped it somewhere unimaginable last night when you got drunk. The soup will be ready soon so wait a minute you can't go to the audition like that, I'm sure you're probably having hangover and taken the way you've bawled out your eyes this morning, are you trying to scare them there. What will happen if you suddenly faint, then the audition becomes useless" Nana says.

"Coming out from someone who gave me a punch on the face while I was on the brink of death" Mokee countered.

"Hey! That was to save you! I did that to bring you back to life" Nana defended.

"Ohhh...where did I put it last night..." Mokee held her head trying to recall.

"Ah!" She snaps her finger as something crossed her mind.

"The fridge!" She ran to the fridge and on opening it she saw her phone there lying beside some drinks.

"Ugh! It's frozen already..." She hisses.

"Nevertheless you can't go on empty stomach, wait a minute and_ HEY!!!" Nana yelled at her on seeing her gulping down a can filled with milk inside.

"Satisfied? I'm leaving" Mokee dropped the can and rushed away from the fridge.

"You can't take that, you'll get an upset stomach!"

"Just worry about yourself you gangster! My cheek still hurts you know!" Mokee shouted back running towards the door.

"You should be thankful I saved your life! My f**king fist brought you back to life you ungrateful b*tch!"

"What kind of a Doctor beat up their patients to save them, You're not a psychologist! YOU'RE A PSYCHOPATH! A F**KING PSYCHOPATH! If I fail this audition I'm not gonna pay the rent for a year just know that you QUACK!!" She ranted running out of the house.

"LIKE YOU'VE PAID FOR A F**KING YEAR!!" Nana shouted back at her.

"Ugh!! That annoying b*tch...she should be grateful I saved her life..."