How Long Should I Endure

I closed the door.

Blag!!

It could have hit me if not for the door. I took a deep breath, went downstairs to pick up my son and leave.

This is one of those days where I asked myself should I stay or should I leave? But until now, I can’t seem to decide. All I do is cry at night with only the walls listening to me.

You might wonder was battered. No!

Loved? I don’t know!

Cared for? Maybe!

Then the next question you might ask is why?

My name is Kamiah and this is my story.

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She was 2 days late. The tracker had rung its notification to alert her if she has failed to update it. But, she did not.

Three days ago, she started spotting. Usually, that’s how her period starts. Then, after a day or two comes the normal menstrual bleeding. But, that’s not what happened. Instead for three consecutive days, all she experience was light spotting. She feels weird. It never happened before. So, she got herself a pregnancy test.

After five days of light spotting, she did the test first thing in the morning. She was anxious during that few seconds of waiting to see how many lines would show up. Finally, a LINE showed. And she sighed with relief.

For the succeeding days, spotting is gone but no period as well. She started asking herself was stress the culprit of making her period act unusually. She did not think about pregnancy. She did the test already and it showed that she failed the test of becoming a mom. So, she decided to give it a few more days or even a month.