Kill this love

Have you met angels in real life? Feeling as if your life is only focused on someone. Shebecomes the center of your world as if gravity keeps you drawn towards her. Someone you deserve to wait no matter how long. Someone who makes you forget all your sadness just by looking at her. Someone who can make you happy just by seeing her smile even though you are not the reason for that smile.

It might sound a little exaggerated, but I've found the angel. A very beautiful angel with a sweet sincere smile, her eyes are also very beautiful makes everyone like her. It's not an exaggeration but the angel really came to me, her name was Precious.

I am a weak person and always get bullied every day. I am short and unattractive, I also don't have any advantages like other cool kids because of that no one wants to be friends with me. I was used to being ignored and standing alone in the corner of the playground while watching other kids play happily ever since I was 5 years old so as usual I was standing in the corner watching other kids playing while imagining being one of them.

I never imagined or even expected anything, but that day the miracle happened to me. A girl came over to me and stretched out her hand asking me to be her friend. I can only be silent and open my eyes wide because it is very difficult for me to believe a beautiful girl whom everyone likes reached out to me and asked me to be her friend.

"Do you really want to be my friend?" I asked stupidly

But She smiled and said she really wanted to be my friend. It was a simple little act but in fact it was what made Precious an angel to me. I, as a child, really admired her and that admiration grew into love over time. Even when we entered high school my feelings towards Precious were the same

School may be a fun place for cool, smart kids or those who are very sociable but it's not for me. Surely you also have people who are very lousy and not easy to get along with. People who have a bad appearance with glasses and always hold a book. Someone who is always the target of other people's anger. If you ask him what school is like, I'm sure he will say like hell because that's how I feel.

Every morning I had to be mentally prepared every time I went to school because a bunch of bully brats would catch me and make me their vehicle to vent their anger if they saw me. That's why I have to be very careful when entering school so they don't find me.

I thought I had managed to avoid them by passing through the entrance gate while covering my face with a bag but I was wrong. As soon as I passed through the gate and started to feel relieved, one of them grabbed my uniform by the back and dragged me behind the school.

I don't know why they always do this to me every morning, maybe it's just their instinct as a predator to attack their weak prey like me because as far as I remember I have never wronged them. Even so they would force me to kneel down like a dog then take all the punches and kicks they gave me.

It hurts a lot but I have to endure all of it every day without being able to do anything. Maybe for you I look stupid because I just accept all that so I think so too, but there is nothing I can do because if I fight I know I will lose to them then they will start to repay me by beating me even worse.