Under His Spell

I keep on asking myself what is the definition of pain. Witness the beautiful flowers that were in front of me when he answered the question that I was having a hard time answering. Pain is the reason for every decision we make.

Some are left behind because they are afraid of being hurt.

Some leave because people are afraid of being hurt.

There are those who cheat because they are afraid of getting hurt.

Some people cheat because some people are afraid of getting hurt.

To make everything short, pain is the scariest thing that exists. We don't know when we will feel him and we don't know if we will be able to feel him once we do. We are all afraid of feeling bait. Especially in terms of loving someone. So, in order to avoid it we choose to put that pain in someone. We will decide to avoid that pain just so we don't feel it again.

"Isn't it over yet?!" Zoe shouted loudly as we were arranging my things.

He didn't even look at her and continued to fold the clothes I wore earlier. I don't want to make this hard for every crew member so I choose to help them. We just finished our photo shoot at Cole clothing, but instead of going home right away, I chose to help with the repairs.

"You're always a hero..." I heard him say softly before passing me and entering the dressing room.

She was my best friend back then and I know that she was mad at me. Sometimes I really ask myself why he is angry with me. We were both not chosen. She reaches her dream career which is to be a professional photographer. I had no choice so I ended up here.

"Heart isn't there yet?" Ela asked Keysi.

It was like something choked me because of what I heard. I can't move because I feel like I have no right. It's been a year but the guilt is still inside my soul and eating me.

I didn't like that. I didn't want to be hurt and hurt. I just... I just can't find any way to avoid the pain.

It's tiring because I can receive those diseases that over time are buried in my heart and mind. Avoiding pain is not cowardice. I just saved myself.

Avoiding the pain is not bad, especially when you just want to save yourself. It's not being selfish because it's taking care of your mind, soul, and heart.

"Alright... we'll take care of it, maybe Zoe's cape will catch fire," Keysi uttered, one of the stylists here.

I just smiled at him and continued what I was doing. Zoe is good at barking, especially using hurtful words. I'm used to him so why should I be afraid? When we finished the arrangement, I said goodbye to them.

I held tighter the coke float that I was holding when I saw a very familiar guy. He looks stunning wearing his white hoodie and navy blue cargo shorts partnered with his favorite white slipons. He didn't do anything to make everyone look at him but he already hooked the attention of everyone inside this fast food chain.

I don't know what to do. I bit my lip to stop the feeling. I admit that for the past years I still miss him. No matter what I do... I can't cut him. He still has a very special part in my heart. Only for him even if he doesn't want to.

He was not angry at what I did to him and for destroying the relationship between him and Heart. Because he is kind... I took advantage of his kindness.

Because Aze is the man who apologizes to you, he will forgive you.

"Daddy!" I almost fell out of my seat when I heard my son's voice.