THE BAD NERD BOY

We are told to let our light shine and if it does, we won’t need to tell anyone it does. Lighthouse don’t go firing cannons to call attention to their shining- they just shine

-The legend of the lighthouse

I was shattered to hell seeing her innocent face covered with the oxygen mask. Her legs were aided and hung on the stench. In the gist of time, my one mistake had completely turned down the life of the girl who loved me and the worst part was that I had never given her a chance to propose her love. Without a second thought of herself, she had dared to sacrifice herself for me.

Had I ever deserved such a pure and selfless love?

Life had never been such a disaster for me than the moments I had been living through the past months. For everyone in the town and high school, I was the cold-hearted newcomer prince charm and their biggest competitor. But for her, I was the most special being. I had no Idea why I was so special to her. But I did know that the way she understood every single pain of mine was not even understood by my mother. Now that she was Inside the ICU because of me, I had no other reason to stay alive.

It was midnight and the hospital was in pin-drop silence except for the beeping of the machines and doors sliding open and shut. There was no one other than us in the corridor. Mr.Harry was sitting on the seat blank and stupefied thinking about what the doctor had told us and Mrs.Karen had wrapped her hand around her husband, crying profoundly.

My heart was aching witnessing their state and wished to sit next to and console them. But I my body and mind didn’t let me do so only because I did not have a bit of courage to even look into their eyes.

I didn't even dare to because I was the sole reason why they were on the verge of losing their everything. Not being able to control the guilty anymore I walked away from them and saw Mike who was busy impatiently calling some people and was constantly checking his phone.

Well, he was the only person I could talk to for the time being so I went to him and held his shoulders.

“Any hope?” I asked him in a low tone.

He nodded a ‘no' and his facial expression clearly showed his hopelessness.

Chills of being terrified swept throughout my body and my legs became numb.

Did it mean we had no way to save her?

No, no, nooo…there’s no way that’s going to happen. She hasn’t got a chance to live her fantasy where her prince charm will come to claim her. She hadn’t got to experience her one sided love being a two sided one. She hasn’t even seen my love. There was no way I was going to give up on her before fulfilling each of her crazy, stupid fantasies.

I wanted her back. I wanted to give her back the chance she had given me. It was time for me to be there for her and show her my worthiness, to own her as mine.

“What are you planning to do”? Mike was puzzled my reaction and saw a light of determination in me.

I had no answer for him. Looking at his face all I noticed was that it had swollen up due to the crying and stress he had in the situation. Gosh, what all have I caused unknowingly???

I couldn’t utter a single word in answer to him. The truth was that I wanted to tell him many things but everything just came to me and got stuck on the tip of my tongue itself.

Honesty speaking, I wanted to yell and tell him that I too loved her as much as she loved me and I will do anything and everything I could, just to give her back the love and happiness she deserved from me and the world.

“Mike, please trust me as you had always done” after a lot of struggle it was all I could utter and promised him.

There was no time for me to waste anymore and I had to act fast. So, I hugged him tightly to gain the strength I wanted to do what I wanted to and got out of the hospital. And hurrying down my out, I accidently bumped into someone.

“Oh Zack, thank god I found you. How’s she?” I was startled when the girl leaped on me and hugged me asking me the question.

Being blank already, I pushed her away to see who it was and when I saw her face, some kind of adrenaline of hatred spread across me wanting to squeeze her throat.

“Stay away from her Caroline” I gritted my teeth in disgust of seeing her there trying to act so caring of her.

How did she even think I’ll forgive her so easily???

If the situation was not the present one, then I would have clearly shown her the real audacity of her. Girl you’re lucky for the day but don’t take it as a chance to do what you had been doing all these while with us!!!

“Zack, all I wanted…” just like I thought, she started to do it again and my patience was already done for the day.

I held her more tightly making her feel the pain and looked into her eyes with my blood red eyes.