Glimpse of Yesterday

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e floor. I was speechless, unable to utter any words as I felt how my world

int it was tired of producing any drop of water. I was just staring blankly at nothingness

ll be able to pass it through medications recommended by

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owed by chemotherapy and radiation. It will probably cost $91,000 or more with radi

don't have enough mon

e this time it's a mix of hell of anguish and sea of agitation were both

all this

y sister

e way

lls me with her

s in her body in this damn isolating r

tly said and

o damn worried to the point that I know I sting as I was still we

h her hand to squeeze it

e didn't have

spend the money from the man from

k," I softly said an

to inform her about the tragic new

convenience store near the hospital. It was a medium huge store full of non-frivolous things. My

from the hill gave me. And when I was about to pass through the chocolate s

f my classmates just so me and my sister could get a chance to taste those a

oesn't make me less of a bitch if I don't st

w that I'm dr

Why do you have

. Are we that de

e of a sudden v

sty right

asket like what the hell? I tore my gaze off of the basket and looked up to him who's cu

," I growled as

see you later,

ut. And at the back of my mind, I was silently

nute, I stared blankly at it thinking when will the time happen

to happen? I gues

d my way to the counter. I gave my basket to the gir

y said and fetched t

shouted when I wa

carrying a huge plastic bag a

s for?" I as

he guy earlier

ou talking to?" I a

o's wearing a gray hoodie.

confirmed and

then gave me

for you.

ag and I was appalled just by seei

many from wh

ed, still astonished

ou should check it out," she blushed, ma

saw a note on the inside an

d, every 1 kiss is equivalent to 100 choco

l? Is he fli

The cashier dr

on't." I c

way out of the store. When the morning br

nned myself with my palms as

ered! That's a one o

ushing, Ms

ciously cursed when

er flirted with you?" Even when I couldn

irmed that he's

n, I freeze, unable to utter

hen grabbed the plast

wearing a face mask. Even hi

ugly?" I uncon

I'm just afraid

easily for flirtat

lief." He then tur

ly at his broad shoulders when h

lifted his arms, showing the two plast

went near him to g

any arms to carry just two plastic bags. I ca

, Ms. Oh Shit." He then whi

1 kick you can say goodbye to

raised his arms on t

ve a lot of kids! Who knows? You might be t

the

being too serious!" He

don't know why the hell is my heart even beating so fast l

tha

the same as my dad. They thi

my

pain from his heavy palms as he's currently staring

money for your sister's treatment by now! But because of you! We fuc

I didn't even get a chance to give her the chocolate or even the cup of noodle just so she could e

I managed t

with my sister's health, probably he left his shift ju

shole. Do you think i

d a filthy old rich man and give him my virginity?! Is that what you want me to do?!

Thank God we don't carry the same las

act as a one real father for both of us! But instead! You proudly act

fucker assho

nd so I immediately hid it but it was too late because he gra

t the money to buy thi

outed and tried to reach it

er money, don't you?

will never accept a money

sia! Hand me the money fo

f explaining my side! I said I don't have it!

ucking

ned his back at me and th

cilessly threw the two plas

ou deserve you

sister..." I

as crying silently and was

anything! That's for my

ought her a food!

" It was

t deserve any food! You're just

ease don't." M

in the middle of the street

his cold blue eyes. He avoided my gaze

mil

or once, my sister got to be

ack at them a

My sister

r." It

d I say—

ke I was a beggar: hungry and hopeless. And even though I have a family and

like an

don't belong

ld is being too muc

e because life doesn't deserv

eze hugging my body tightly as if it do

my life, thinking of drowning myself in such a beautiful place since after all... m

d be happy

autiful si

l, real mom, cr

f it successfully made a p

take my last step, on

ad is full

y is full

the hill. Singing in

ying about wha

ook in my

o make a

d all my sorrow

reflection in the pond and I saw h

if we ju

all out troubl

live insid

et through

'll find t

my eyes as I look

e jus

ust, if

just

was really comforting as if it was st

e to push myself to smile and so I did. And as I stare d

rrible my thought was. That was such a hideous act and I

again, in a time wh

he world has deprived me of i

l be such a great loss f

the kind of feeling I've never fel

ing a person w

felt worthless

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