Breaking the Routine

I miss him, I haven't seen him for three years, and it's been a year since we last had communication.

I miss him damn much. I miss my man so much.

I can't help but feel sad about what happened today.

I miss him so much. For a year I wondered why he did not answer my calls, texts or even emails to him.

I don't know what the problem is with him, what the problem is between the two of us.

Why did he suddenly have no answer.

Shortly after I graduated from college, I immediately returned to the Canada to know everything.

I don't know how nervous I feel right now, I feel so excited at the same time afraid of what will happen to me.

I love him so much and I am afraid of what he will say is the reason why he suddenly stopped.

We didn't split up so I'm sure I'll be back soon.

I'm sure my boyfriend is still there. I'm still Zack Jaden Navarro's girl.

My tears continued to flow as I boarded the plane back to the Philippines.

I don’t know how I feel.

I don't know why I am crying.

All I know is that I am happy to see the man who makes up my life again.

But I can't help feeling sad that I may no longer be the woman who makes up his life.

I did not even bother to check in at the hotel to lower my belongings.

I went straight to their house. Regardless of me being tired during the duration of my trip back here. I know Evren will hug me.

The nervousness I felt as the taxi made its way to his place did not go away.

'Finally I will see him again'

That's all I have. I tried to make the contents of my brain positive so that my tears would not fall again.

My heart pounded when I saw the gate that I had not seen for almost three years.

I waited for someone to answer when I rang the doorbell.

I'm so excited to see him again.

I replaced everything I felt when I saw again the face I had long wanted to see.

He smiled at me when he opened the gate.

"What do you need?" He asked me.

Even curious I tried to remove it. Maybe he doesn't recognize me because my hair has fallen out and my appearance has been ruined.

"Evren..." My tears flowed then I grabbed him by the hug.

"I miss you so much love" I whisper on his ear.

I lost my energy when he forced me to stay away from him.