Help I don t want to be the female lead

The lights burned before I could even open my eyes. The sound of the machines beeping sent a pulsing through my head which I could only describe as agonising. The reek of disinfectant and alcohol burned through my nose arousing me from my sedated slumber even more. I could start making out little whispers and I could feel the presence of someone next to me. This couldn’t possibly be the other side. I wasn’t sure I’d end up in heaven, people who sin like I did don’t get to enter the pearly gates but I thought still it would be more comfortable than this. That’s when it dawned on me. I failed.

They got to me in time. I was alive. My eyes managed to start opening, the light burning my corneas more so by the second. By the time they managed to finally adjust I realised the presence I could feel was my dad. The emotionally unavailable man that I still loved dearly was trembling and filled with tears. The sight shattered my already broken heart even more but the emotions of anger and hurt broke through too.

 “You’re awake” my dad says grabbing a hold of my hand.

 “Where am I?” I asked. Reality still not properly set in.

“You’re in the hospital, Sarah realised there was something wrong and got to you in time to call the ambulance”