His Rejection And Regrets

Nova

Today is the big day, my wolf said waking me up.

The big day indeed. But don't get your hopes up... Who would want us as a mate?

There is nothing wrong with me. Now you, on the other hand, dress like you are in a convent.

My wolf was always criticizing me about my wardrobe and about the fact that I didn't talk to people other than my brother and why should I? My brother was the only one who looked out for me. He stopped people who teased me; he took care of me when both of our parents died; he was my mother and father, my brother and my best friend. He's my rock, and he's the only reason I stayed and endured the pain. I don't know what he would do if I was to just up and disappear, and I never wanted to find out.

Live his life. Just like everybody else would, my wolf joked. I tuned her out and got up to get dressed.

I walked to my stereo case where all my music was held. I looked around for my iPod but didn't see it. It was supposed to be on the iHome console where I had put it last night. It wasn't on my computer charging so that means there was only one explanation.

Alex, I thought. I sighed knowing that he was the only one who could've had my iPod.

I threw open my door and stalked to his room down the hall. When I got to his door, I could hear music being played, not my music, which mostly consisted of soft rock, pop, R&B, and some rap songs, instead, that horrible underground rap stuff was playing.

I banged on the door screaming his name hoping he could hear me over the music. About a minute later he answered his door with one of his dimpled smiles, the one that melted all the girls' hearts at school. I returned the smile as he pulled me to him and hugged me.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL SIS," he screamed in my ear and over the music.

"Thank you, Alex." I said in his ear holding him as tight as he was holding me. I decided to spare his ear of my screams since I could make him go deaf.

"Your welcome. Hey, why aren't you getting dressed?"

He had finally looked me up and down noticing that I was still in my jammies, while he was in gray Levi jeans and no shirt showing off his stomach and abs. His dark brown hair fell neatly around his ears in curls. It was apparent he had already showered, washed his face and brushed his teeth. His tan skin shone because of the oil he insisted on using. He said it made him super sexy and irresistible. I said it just made washing his clothes a nightmare.

"Well my iPod was missing, and I came to ask you if you had seen it," I asked sweetly knowing that he had it.

"Well, I was going to wait until a little later to give it to you but ugh, fine you wore me down," he said sighing playfully. He walked over to his bed and pulled out a small box wrapped in green paper. Green was my favorite color.

How sweet of him, I thought.

"Here," he said handing me the box.

I took the box and quickly unwrapped it, not caring about the pretty green paper. Inside the already opened box sat a new iPod touch. I pressed the apple button in the middle and it opened to a picture of Alex and me at a beach in California.

It had been just the two of us and none of his friends; we had a lot of fun that week. It was one of the happiest moments of my life. I smiled at the memory. I clicked on the music icon and saw that all my music was there. I smiled and looked up at Alex in approval. All my pictures, music and games were on there. I squealed and looked up at Alex, bouncing.

"Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! How d'you get all my things on here," I asked curiously. He wasn't the most computer or technology savvy person I knew. Hell, he could barely work his phone.

"I took it to the Apple store in the mall and asked if they could transfer it all. Oh, and you're welcome. Now go get dressed or we're going to be late. We have people to pick up this morning," he told me giving me one last hug and shooing me off to my room.

I walked back to my room happy and glowing. My birthday was shaping out to be one of the best days of my life. If only it would continue once we got to school. Hell, once we left the house. It was right then that my mood instantly went sour. I knew it would all end as soon as we picked up Alex's friends. They were horribly mean to me even though I never said a word to them.

I sighed to myself. "You have to start standing up for yourself Nova," I said to myself.

It if was that easy for you to stand up to them, then you would have done it years ago, my wolf added.

Maybe, but today's different. Today's is my birthday, which means it is literally my day and I won't let anyone bring me down, I vowed to myself.

Sure. Was all my wolf said before she disappeared in my mind. I happily took advantage of the silence.

Looking at the time, I saw I only had an hour to get ready, so I ran the rest of the way to my room and jumped in the shower. I washed and conditioned my hair. While the conditioner sat, I washed my body and then rinsed my hair and washed my body once more and then jumped out. Tedious, I know. I sat at my vanity and flicked the button to start my hands-free hairdryer. My brother and I were the richest people in the pack. Yes, we were that rich.

The pack altogether had at least five million stored away in various accounts, but my brother and I had more than ten million left to us by our parents. That money was an accumulation of her inheritance and ours together.

After my mother died giving birth, Alex said she had left us a large fortune in her will and left our cheating father nothing but her best wishes. Our parents were mates, so every time he went out and slept with another woman our mother felt it and it hardened her heart against him. With my father upset about not being left anything and riddled with grief that his mate was gone, he began to drink.

The drinking turned to drugs and then he started hallucinating, which eventually caused him to commit suicide. I was too young and sheltered by my brother to remember the drinking and the drugs, but I do remember me coming home from school early one day to find him in my room leaving a note on my dresser. I was young, so I thought that he was leaving me a present. I was excited to see what Daddy had gotten me that I didn't see the gun that he held tightly in his hands. I couldn't forget that day even if I tried.

He smiled at me and told me how much I looked like mother and how sorry he was for not being there for me, for us, Alex and I, and that he hoped in his next life, if there was one, he'd be a better father. It was hard to understand him because he was drunk, and slurring his words. He then pulled the gun from behind his back. He quickly brought it up to his chin and pulled the trigger before he could second-guess himself, or before I could even think to beg him not to do anything too rash.

Blood splattered everywhere, including on me, all over my face. It took me a while to register what had happened, and then the screams started. I sat there for hours trying to remember why I had come home from school. I don't remember when I had stopped screaming or when Alex had come in the house. I had lost track of time, only to find it again when Alex was in my doorway screaming and calling for help. He found me in the corner of my room, far away from the body.

"Nova, what happened," he asked me in a panicked tone. All I could do was shrug my shoulders. I couldn't talk. I didn't want to. I didn't know what to say. My mind was all over the place. I could think straight.

"Nova come on, you have to tell me."

Alex pleaded with me to open my mouth and say something, anything. Everybody from our pack walked in and looked at the grotesque scene and then looked at me. Alpha Ellis looked at me with a stern face and a serious tone.

Alpha Ellis had always been a stern and heartless man, even with his own son. All he cared about was how strong the pack fighters were. Using the Urathi as his own personal army. He would make them raid packs all over and take all the women, children and other Urathi.

Alpha Ellis wanted to have America's strongest pack, which would've happened sooner if a portion of the Urathi in the pack hadn’t began a rebellion within the pack, spreading discord throughout the Urathi camps. Instead of wasting his time trying to negotiate with them, Alpha Ellis had them killed in the middle of the night. When the angry family members asked him about it, he said he had no time for a rebellion, and they would all get the same fate if they tried to rebel.