Love Is Like A Forbidden Fruit

No one knew it would come to this as I stood there naked wearing nothing but shame. As I stood there looking at the man I was married to for ten years. His face was full of confusion, sadness, and heartbreak. He is looking at the man I fell in love with. My husband realized everything he felt about my infidelity was true. He had the feeling of hatred written all over his face. The man that stole my heart, this tall, dark, and handsome man swept me away. I loved both, but my heart belongs to my best friend. Samir came into my life where I was full of self-hate and loveless nights.

I was once so happy in my marriage to Lamont. He showered me with love. He showed me that I am capable of loving someone. However, we had our issues. I was ready for marriage and yes, my mouth was ruthless, however every single time we got over a hurdle another tragedy stopped our progress. He has cheated on more than one occasion. The first time was with his ex. The story behind that is we argued over a stupid car. You see I wasn't working, and he was, and we just purchased a car. The car was in his name and as a married man he had the mentality that since he bought it then it only belonged to him. He always drove the car. Now without me he wouldn't be able to drive off the lot because negro was illegal. However, the argument led to him going over to his ex-house and he kissed her. Now I know you are saying a kiss is just a kiss, but his ex-girlfriend wasn’t just an ex. He was going to marry her, but she cheated on him. She was the friend of the family, so she was close to him.

So, we moved past his one incident, but it came to him denying our marriage to strippers and random girls. We had a rough marriage in the beginning, but I stayed. You can call me crazy or stupid, but I loved him, and I fell in love with his potential. Now what drove me down this road was the last hurtful thing was he created a baby with a random. You see that took my soul and my joy, but I still stayed. Now we are here nine years later and I'm standing in this triangle I created. He had the best of both worlds. This man would be married Monday through Thursday and single on the weekend. I learned a man will do what you allow him to do. I know I shouldn't be mad because I allowed the foolery, yet again I loved him.

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Chapter 1

Samir’s Intro

Samir O'del Jackson, the man that pulled off the greatest robbery. He stole my heart, but not at first. I met him at my darkest moment, when life was hell at home and the world seemed so helpless. We met during a parent teacher conference. I was talking to one of my student's parents and walked past a tall smooth glass of milk with pretty teeth. He was dressed in his work clothes all dirty but looked so clean. He was one of our schools' construction guys. I got so distracted I totally lost my train of thought and had to excuse myself. On my way to the restroom I bumped into this strong and tall man. Lord behold it was him and I just knew all of my juices started flowing. "Excuse me, I didn't see you there. Are you okay?" Lord I couldn't find the word yeah, yes, I'm fine, no words could form. "Miss are you okay?'' Oh, I'm fine. I'm sorry I bumped into, I wasn't paying attention. "No, it was me, every man should make way around such a beautiful woman such as you. Hello, I'm Samir. Nice to bump into you." I'm Mrs. Williams and it was a pleasure meeting you. "You have a nice day Miss Williams." It's Mrs. Williams, but you do the same. I walked away with a huge smile on my face. He was so fine and when I say fine I meant he is up there with Morris Chestnut and Kofi. His hands were so soft and his teeth were so pretty and white.

I arrived home and now I am welcomed to hell. Of course, Lamont is not home too busy with his friends. At this point I'm used to it. I can only try to be the best wife I can be. Life here was not all bad. We had good days, but bad arrived when he lost his job and from there he just didn't give a shit, but I stayed hoping he would change. The next day I was so happy to go to work. I never used to watch what I wore to work. I made sure I got to work early so I could see his face. Since I knew they were working on building a new library, I knew he would be there early so he can make sure his crew is okay before morning traffic. I arrived at the school with such joy like I'm meeting Morris Chestnut or something. I walked into the building heading to my class and it was chocolate standing at my door. "Hi Mrs. Williams, I wanted to come and apologize again for my mistake yesterday. I didn't mean to harm you in any way." It is okay. I was not harmed in any form or fashion. You can come in if you would like, I don't bite. Lord his cologne was the heaven of me. He smelled like fresh sunrise and Irish spring.

Mrs. Williams I wanted to apologize and make sure you were okay. Well it was sweet to come check on me, but I'm fine, I'm a tough woman so not much can make me fall. "Yes, well I will go back to my men to make sure we build this school properly." He started to walk out of the room and I guess something came over him because next thing I hear "Is there a way I can make it up to you and invite you to lunch?" Now you guys know every inch of my body wanted to shout because this man just asked me out, but you know I had to keep my cool. Wow I mean the teachers and I are going to a dinner tonight if you want you could join us? You can tell he was disappointed, but even though my marriage is in shambles I will not cheat or entertain anyone. "Yeah I can meet you guys, here is my number just text me the location." He left as my 3rd grade class began to enter. This is a form of cheating and I can't go out with him, but then again, it's a group outing so what can go wrong.

It was the end of day and I knew I had to hurry up and head to XOXO where we will be having our dinner. Lord, why did I allow April to pick the place? She is the ratchet one. I finally made it. I walked in and I can really say it was not loud and ratchet at all. Very elegant but with a splash of it was a man that built this company. I walked over to our table where I saw April, Michelle, Candace, Michael, Tyrone, and surprisingly Principle Stewart. "Hey girl, how are you, I'm glad you came." I am happy that I'm here. We need a break and celebration for our raises we will be receiving this month. The waiter approached me "Hi, I'm Sam. I will be your waiter. What would be your choice of drink?" I would love a Sunrise Ocean. “Oh, you're trying to get drunk?" shouted April. Everyone started laughing. The waiter left to get my drink while I patiently and nervously waited on chocolate. Hopefully he shows up. The waiter delivered my drink. April took it upon herself to order our food. I hope it is good because I am starving. "Hi, is this seat taken?" No, everyone, this is Samir. He is a part of the construction crew for the school. "Samir Jackson, but you can call me Samir. Lord all my juices were flowing, but I knew I couldn't act on it. This is April, Michelle, Michael, Candace, Tyrone, and of course you know Principle Stewart. He sat next to me as he started greeting others. He embodies sex and wears it well, but Ren you can't act on these emotions. As we sat and ate, talked, and drank I realized it was late I had to go. I have an early morning with my Saturday class. I began to gather up my things and said goodbye to everyone and began to exit. " Wait, let me walk you to your car. I don't want you to walk alone at this time of night." We exit the building together and I promise you it was the sweetest thing that anyone could do for me.

Seems like we made it safely to my car, Mr Jackson. I gave a small smile and as I was about to get into my car, I felt a hand press up against my hand. "I don't want to sound out of the way or overstepping any boundaries, but this is the best time I've had in years and I thank you for inviting me." You are welcome. It was my pleasure. I had a wonderful time as well. "Maybe one day you and I can have a moment, in a strictly platonic way. I know you are married so I don't want to seem like I'm overstepping, just want to personally thank a friend." Wow well I will see you at school from time to time, maybe we can have lunch at school. I got into my car and drove off. It was a nice gesture, but again I'm loyal to my husband even when he is not there, two wrongs don't make a right. I can say this though I'm so horny right now he really got me going. I arrived drunk and horny terrible combinations. I walked in and it's Lamont rushing to get off the phone. I don't know why he is trying to hide it. I know he is cheating. Hell, his messages pop up on the iPad.

“Hey babe how was your night with your coworkers? It was fine just going over school stuff. Now I'm tipsy so I don't want any conversation. I just really want to be fucked right now. I walked over to him and hopped on his lap ready to have my back blown. I started kissing his neck which smelled like a woman, but I didn't care because I just wanted to feel something even if it’s temporary. He ripped my shirt off and began sucking on my nipples. He slid his hand down my skirt and started fingering me. All I could do was think of Samir and hands on me and his voice whispering in my ear. He started pulling my hair and grabbing my ass. Shit this shit feels good. I unbuckled his pants and started kissing his chest. I needed to lead myself down there just in case a bitch pussy was on his dick but surprisingly no pussy smell. I began sucking his dick. As I hopped on his dick, putting his balls in my mouth, swallowed every inch of dick. His toes curl up and he is grabbing my hair. I started going faster and faster. I know it’s wrong for thinking of another man, but I haven't had attention in so long and sex is far and stretched. Before he could cum, I started riding his shit like a cowgirl. I started fucking him harder. All I hear him say is oh shit, fuck girl. I know that's when he about to cum, but no I’m not finished yet I got on my knees and he began to fuck from behind. I love this position. He began pounding harder and harder from this I feel like he was fucking another bitch. Next thing you know I'm squirting everywhere. Shit I didn't care if he got his, but somehow, he did.

Damn Ren we haven't fucked like that in a minute, you show go out more if you come home to me like that. Now in my mind I’m like you barely home for me to fuck, but I just agreed and proceeded to the shower. All I could think about Samir was a fine ass. I couldn't wait to go to work tomorrow. I'm glad they work on the weekend. I laid down to catch my breath and ended up falling asleep. The next morning, I was ready to get my day started. I couldn't wait to see Samir today. Even though I've been dreaming of him, it is still not cheating. I made it to work and the sight of watching my babies play brings me so much joy. As I approached my door, there was no chocolate man standing there. I was disappointed, but at the sametime I was relieved. I knew this was wrong. I'm here looking for a man that does not belong to me. Also I am a married woman and I shouldn't be entertaining him. I started my lesson for today. My kids were so happy to see me again. My mind was everywhere but the task at hand. It's the end of the day and no visit. A married woman shouldn't be doing this. I began cleaning my room, the kids made a huge mess. I heard a knock on my door and it was Samir. "Hi Mrs. Williams, I'm sorry to bother you, I just wanted to come see how you were doing. I see you made it home safe. May I enter?" I gave him a smile and nodded yes. This man is unbelievable. I couldn't get my words out right. I was stumbling over my words. How are you? And thank you for walking me to my car the other night. "I'm okay, I just wanted to check on you."

I'm so confused as to why he would even want to talk to me. I mean someone fine like him shouldn't find any interest in me. He looked at me with a smile with his strong voice "Well I will let you go and be safe." He left the room, but his cologne lingered for a while. His body would leave the room, but his presence is like a ghost haunting you. I finished cleaning and finally was able to leave work.

On my way home I received a text from April wanting to go out and talk. I already know what she wants to talk about. Her man has been getting on her nerves and all she wants to do is get drunk and talk about our failing marriages. I met up with April at her house. All she could do is talk about Mitch don't spend time with her, if only she knew about how my man keep cheating and fucking other women then she will probably be grateful about her working man. I spent at least two hours over there drinking and eating.

I went to the bar to drink some more. I have so much to drink off. When your friends give you their problems, I swear I take them on and then I feel their pain. As Jill Scott was playing and I'm on my third Sex on the Beach I feel this soft, but manly hand on my shoulders. It was Samir and the boy looked like he had a rough day. "Hello, Mrs. Williams, I didn't expect for you to be in a place like this." Well it is a bar and there are a lot of places you wouldn't think I would be in. How are you? "I'm okay, I just had a rough day at the construction site. My men are getting sloppy and I want it to be perfect." Well I'm sure they are just tired, but they will be fine, here go right ahead and take a seat. We sat there drinking and having a good time. I have not had fun like this in years. It started to get late, so I needed to leave. I could barely stand, so I knew I couldn’t drive. “You are not in the shape to drive under these conditions, is it someone I can take you to, or can you go home?” I can go over April’s house, she lives a couple of minutes from here. We proceeded to his truck. He picked me up because I was stumbling and could barely walk. “What is her address?” It is 2226 1st Street SW. I laid back, while he started driving off. "Why are you drinking on a school night? It is not safe for you to be like this." Look I had a rough day and I am pretty sure I will have a rough night. I don't need someone who dont know me to add his unwelcome advice. Don't sit there and judge me. At least I know my life is a fucking problem. He pulled over and parked and faced me and said," Your life is not a fucking mess. This marriage may be in shambles now, but things can change, your husband could change. If he dont change then that's a shame because if you were mi……." He couldn't finish his sentence. I could tell he had something on his chess, but he respected me too much to say it. He took a small deep breath and said," I'm going to take you to April's house so you can sober up, I don't want you to do this again, I'm happy I was here. Who knows what could have happened if I wasn't here or anyone for that matter". We locked eyes as if time stopped and no one in the world existed. I knew this was the moment, I knew the kiss I was waiting on was about to happen. As I got closer to him the emotions in my body started to rush. As I leaned in to kiss him, he snatched away. "I can't do this, we can't do this, I respect you and your relationship, and as a man I will not step to something that's not mine." Wow, my feelings were hurt. I really wanted that kiss, but it still turned me on. It was sweet, he didn't take advantage of me, but I wanted him to take all my clothes off and give me every piece of him. He started driving, it was so quiet in the truck. We arrived at April's, I got out and proceeded to walk to her front door. "Do you want me to walk you to the door?" No I'm okay I can take it from here, I'm sober now.

The next morning I woke up with a terrible hangover. "Girl what happened to you last night? You look like you had a rough ass night." April, I had a rough time yesterday. I had too many last night. " Who dropped you off? I saw a truck, it looked like Mr. Samir's truck." It was his truck, he dropped me off. We ran into one another at Bar and I sort of got wasted and he drove me here. I would tell her we almost kissed, but I think I'm going to save that for myself. "We'll get dressed, you can borrow an outfit for work. We have to get dressed for our meeting. It starts at nine so get to stepping." I took a shower and got dressed. I tried to look for something that wasn't too revealing. April knows how to flaunt it, so many can want it. My phone started ringing and it was Lamont. There were 30 missed calls. I called him . "Hey bae I'm sorry I didn't come home or call last night. I got drunk with April and passed out on the couch. "It's cool I didn't know you were gone, I just got home and didn't see your car this morning. "Well if you are just now getting home, what is up with the missed calls? "Oh sorry baby I guess I butt dial you, you know my phone is tripping, but I'm happy you are okay and I guess I will see you when you get off."

We finally made it to work. I ran to my class to make sure my babies were okay. I walked in my class and as usual my babies were loud. "Hello Mrs. Williams! Hi class, I want you to work on page 82 in your English book while I go to this meeting. I grabbed my laptop and proceeded to exit the class. "Mrs. Williams!" I turned around and it was Samir. Hello, Mr. Jackson. What is it I can do for you?"Well I was just checking on you. I wanted to make sure you made it safe and you were okay." I'm fine thank you for asking, but I have to go. "Will I see you later?" You can always come visit me in my class if you have any questions. I walked away, I know I shouldn't be having these feelings, but I do and I know I can't act on them. So I'm going to leave him alone. After two hours of talking about planning for the remaining school and funding, we finally ended. The kids were at lunch so I decided to spend my time in the classroom. All I could do is think about Samir. Okay Ren you have to focus on something else, he is not your man and you are not his woman. Knock, knock, and it was him. "You said I can come visit you in class so I'm here." Okay, you can come on in and sit. "I want to say I'm sorry, that night was messy.” It was okay, I’m sorry for coming on too strong. It was not my intention to scare you or to come on to you. I was drunk and I do apologize. “ I understand when it comes to having a stressed day, sometimes you have to let go and enjoy yourself.” Smh, you are so correct, but I will not get drunk like that anymore. “You have a good day and I will see you tomorrow.” A couple hours later and it was time to go. I'm so happy it is the end of my day, but I have to do this again tomorrow. I love my kids, but damn I am tired.

Driving home and all I can think about is that night of shame. A notification pops up on my phone and it is My Car app that tells me if something is wrong with my car. It looks like I have a flat tire. I pulled over and sure enough it was a small hole, but it looked like it was going to be nasty once I got on the highway. While I waited for roadside assistance, I called Lamont and of course he didn't answer, so I just waited. Time was flying by so fast. I called RSA again to see when their ETA and these fools said they would be here at 6. Lord, how am I going to make it to six? I'm tired and hungry and really need a drink right now. So it's now 5:30 and I just knew they were going to arrive early. A truck pulled up, but it wasn't a tow truck, a man jumped out and it was Samir. "Hey I saw you on the side of the road, do you need some help?" Yeah my tire is completely gone. I can't continue driving on this tire. " Do you have a spare tire? I can switch the tires for you. I have a spare tire and thank you so much. He switched the tires in no time. Do you want to get some coffee? I know it is late, I figured coffee is better than liquor. We drove to Mama Joe Ann Cafe, the best cafe in the whole state. I want to say thank you for saving me, you have been doing that a lot lately. "It is no problem, I hate to see women out alone, too many people dying. How is it being a teacher?" It is a struggle sometimes, not with the kids, but with their parents. You have some parents who don't want to participate in their kids' lives, and it hurts me. So I try to treat each child like my own. "Do you have any kids?" No I don't, I want some, but Lamont decided we need to wait. "Who is Lamont?" Oh sorry, he is my husband, his name is Lamont. We've been married for nine years. "How is being married?" It is good and sometimes you have your bad, but you hope the good overcomes the bad. "Do you love him?" I almost choked on my coffee, I didn't expect him to ask this question. As soon as I was about to fix my mouth to answer the waiter came over. "What can I get you two love birds today?" Both of us blushed as if we were teenagers again. We are not a couple, I'm married, we are just friends. The waitress had a confused look on her face. I will take a ham egg and cheese omelet with hash browns with cheese and orange juice. "What about you sir?" I will just have a BLT no butter. The waitress walked away. I see you are trying to stay fit. We both smiled. *You didn't answer my question." Enough about me, what about you? Are you single? He replied "Yes, I am, but I am exploring my options. I haven't found a woman that can steal my heart." Do you love construction work? He responded with a long breath and replied, " Yes, I have been building things since I was little."

We were there for at least three hours. It lightens my heart to see we can enjoy conversations. We left the building and started walking to my car. I was so tired, but I had a good time. I got in my car and for some reason it wouldn't start, I underestimated my gas tank and now I need gas. "If you want to, I can run you up to the gas station. I have a gas can so we can get the gas and come back and fill you up." I got into his truck and we started driving to the gas station. Lord knows I need to keep my composure. His scent, his voice, his touch, his everything just causes my blood to rush. We stopped at a gas station and he proceeded to enter the station to fill up the gas can. I'm sitting here contemplating if I want to hop on the dick or not. He got back in the truck. I could tell he was nervous about something. I hope he wants it as badly as I do. “I got your gas, let's get you up and running. He started driving back to the cafe. I began praying for composure, this man is too fine and I havent had any in a long time. We made it to the Cafe, he pulled over and parked. “What's wrong? You look like something is bothering you. Is it something I can help you with?” If he only knew what I would like for him to do to me. I’m Fine, I guess I am tired. My mind started wondering about every nasty position. The nerves in my body were in control. I started biting my lips. “Serenity, are you okay?” The next thing I knew I started kissing him. His lips tasted so good, like the kiss of life with a taste of honey. He kissed me back and grabbed my hands and pulled me closer to him. The kiss got intense, I found myself on top of him kissing him as he massaged my thighs, then my waist. I started kissing him on his neck, I promise you another beast appeared, this man took off my shirt and started kissing my nipples. I found myself riding him, his dick was marvelous, it had to be only made for me. I don’t know why I am doing this, I know this is wrong in every way, but it feels so good. He pushed the seat back and laid me down and began eating me out. I never had this type of head, he was cleaning his plate like he was a dishwasher. My legs started shaking and I was so fucking wet. He had nothing but my juices all over his face. Shit is all I could think to say. Shit Samir, I am about to cum, damn stop, stop , stop, shit I’m about to cum. He stopped eating and lifted my legs up and began pounding. That shit was wonderful, he gripped my waist and pound faster and harder. “Shit Ren, fuck your pussy so good, can this be mine?. I found myself screaming yes. We both climaxed together.

We got dressed and prepared ourselves. It was pure silence. I felt so good, but felt horrible. He gave me this long stare as if he was trying to guess how I was feeling. Mrs. Willaims, are you okay? Did I do something wrong? You didn't do anything wrong, it was perfect. I got dressed and got in my car. “Hold on, let me walk you to your car.” It is fine, I can walk by myself. I got in my car and drove off. My face was full of tears, I really betrayed my husband. I don't know how Lamont does this because I am sick inside. Driving home wondering if I was going to tell Lamont, how was I going to break the news, should I tell him even though he has cheated on me countless times. I arrived home and he wasn't there. I'm thinking, while he is still out, that I can weigh my options if I want to tell him or not. So I took a shower, and all I could think about was Samir and how his hands felt all over my body. His dick inside me, so long and thick. I swear he was trying to make a baby. I end up falling asleep. All night I dreamt of him. It was so intense and powerful.

I woke up the next day with a headache. I looked at my phone and I had 5 missed calls from Samir and 2 from April. I didn't want to talk to April because I knew she would see it all over my face. I definitely didn't want to see or speak to Samir. What will we talk about? At this point I am at the edge of the clift and ready to jump. All I can do is think of this man that I just gave a piece of me with no shame, no regrets, I just gave him all of my body. It was something about him, his charm, his personality, and how fine he was. I got dressed so I can have a moment to myself. I had a long night and no sleep. I went to Organic Park, this fabulous park where there is nothing but green grass, fresh water, birds chirping, and ducks eating. It was a piece of fresh air. This was the only park that gave me peace, hell I think it gave everyone peace. “Hello Serenity, is this seat taken?” I looked and it was Samir. My heart dropped. I can't believe he is here, I'm starting to believe he is a stalker. You can sit, it's a free park. "Thank you." Silence became the new song of the day. You can tell both of us were shy and scared to say anything. My heart was racing a thousand miles per hour. "So are we going to sit here and not speak to one another? I have a lot to say to you Serenity. I need you to know that I don't regret anything, if I offended you, I do apologize. I don't want you to feel ashamed, because it was me, I should have never kissed you." It wasn't your fault, I kissed you Samir. I don't want you to take the blame, I caused this. I'm the one that is married and I crossed the line with you. I should be apologizing to you. We need to set something straight, Samir. I don't want work to be awkward, but I don't want you to think that we are a couple or anything. I am still married and I plan on staying that way. You can tell his heart broke when I said those words. Look I don't want you to think this will go anywhere. "It is okay, that's what I wanted to tell you as well. I know you are married and again I apologize for crossing the line. I respect you too much to put you in a position of confusion." Thank you, we will need space, no need to be around one another. I don't want it to be weird at all between us. Are you okay with this agreement? All I can think about is our one night together when my problems didn’t matter. “I can do that, I think that is the best option for us.” He stood up with so much emotion on his face and said goodbye. As he left my sight, all I could think about was him and his smile, his laugh, his voice, everything.