The Pain Of Letting Go

Molly

My mind feels foggy as I try to wake up, like the feeling that you get when you are in a smokey room but I'm in my bedroom and in my bed so this doesn't make sense. I slowly start to open my eyes but the stinging only gets worse. What the hell is going on with my eyes?

I finally manage to open them fully but my sight is still fogged while a commotion of noise hits my ears and an awful smell hits my nose all at the same time. What the hell is that? I rub my eyes to try and clear them but it makes no difference, if anything the fog seems to get worse while my throat starts to burn.

A muffled noise outside my door brings my attention away from the fog. I think it's Tom's voice but I can't be sure. I sit up in bed and take a moment to look around the room and that's when reality hits me square in the chest. It isn't the fog that's stinging my eyes, it's smoke. Holly fuck my bedroom is full of smoke! 

"Archie!" I call my husband as I go to nudge him but I completely miss him. Calling out his name suddenly sends me into a coughing fit that has my lungs burning in seconds. I put my hand over my mouth and nose as I turn to my side to face Archie as I call his name again but stop before I finish saying his name when I realize that he's not there, his side of the bed is empty. 

"Molly!" I hear more commotion outside of my door only this time the voice is louder and more clearer. It's definitely Tom. "Molly, wake up!" I quickly scoot out of bed and get down low while heading for my bedroom door. 

"Molly, can you hear me?" Tom's voice is, even more, clearer now. "Tom, Tom what's going on?" I call out as I pull my rope down from where it is hanging on my bedroom door and use it to cover my mouth and nose. Another painful cough leaves my mouth as I go lightheaded and fuck it scares me. 

"Molls, the house is on fire, you have to come out babe!" Deep down I knew that my house was on fire but still I didn't want to think it never minds believe it, even if my smoke-filled room was the biggest clue, I still didn't want to believe it. Still don't. 

I take in a deep breath readying myself to face whatever hell is on the other side of my door and fuck is that a big mistake. The moment I take a deep breath my lungs burn like nothing else and I find myself in the mists of a major coughing fit. God, please help me! 

"Molls come on babygirl. I'm right outside your door. you can do this!" I try to calm my breathing while keeping most of my face covered and once again grab hold of the handle. The moment I touch it I want to let go again but I don't instead I scream my way through the pain that's building inside of me and pull open my bedroom door before falling into Tom's arms.