Teenager Love

Life is not always fair to us, sometimes we feel like we have given everything and finally we have lost everything.

Before I didn't believe in love at all, I said to myself that this little word is only a little word, yes, it really doesn't change much in our life, I lived my life fully in my little family and I didn't care about anything, everything looked so simple and quiet, I never imagined my life to be complicated and when I dreamed of a future I simply saw myself married at the age of twenty four, with the first man I would know in my life and we would have several children, in short I dreamed of a very perfect life, I really wanted to be loved and loved in return.

I already pinched the heart of a guy when I was eight years old, I was only doing the elementary two, I did not know it until I realized that he never hesitated to make me small gifts, and told me how pretty I was, I was only content to smile at that time without knowing what we were talking about, he made me laugh stupidly and that was all.

He would accompany me to our house after school, he would follow me everywhere and when the weekend came, he would walk around my neighborhood just to see me.

Until then I just knew that he was my classmate, nothing more.

When we finished elementary two, I didn't hear from him anymore, everything stopped abruptly and I didn't have any problem at all or wonder what happened with this friendship, in short he was just my classmate as I said above.

Two years later I finished my primary education and I had to go to the sixth grade in a local high school. I was really happy and once again I made my parents proud by passing my entrance exam to the sixth grade and my primary school certificate.

At the beginning of the school year, we had a new neighbor, a family of four people, a mother, her daughter and her two sons, this time it was me who had a little bit of a crush on the last son, his name was Jordan, so we started to have fun everywhere in the neighborhood, I was never seen without him, we often went out in the morning and toured the surrounding neighborhoods, and he didn't hesitate to go with me wherever I wanted to go and especially to be very helpful to my relatives when we needed him.

With Jordan we spent more than two years in the neighborhood and flirting together, we got along well but it wasn't always easy, he was often haughty with me and we didn't talk for days, but very often we met again very quickly and we had fun and continued our little flirtation where we had stopped.

Finally the link that there was between us had not held any longer and we had directed each one towards other horizons, already that we had never really had an official relation, at a time, it had become very frivolous in spite of its young age, always to run here and there to see such or such girl and I often surprised myself to be jealous then I had said to me would be better to move away me from him, and that had been done without evil, I felt almost nothing for him but good, not of rupture without pain .

The love story started for me in real when I was in high school in the third grade and I knew for the first time what love was.

In my class there was this gang of boys always cute with well ironed clothes that made all the girls in the class flinch, personally I did not have the head to a love relationship but in the end there was one of the boys who made advances to me A few months later, Kevin, he really did not apply in his words and after some investigation I realized that he was a heart already taken so I quickly got rid of it before everything became complicated.

When I refused Kevin's advance, he said he would not give up and so he asked one of his friends, Leon, to make advances to me.

One day when I was sitting on my bench at break time by myself and my friends had gone to the canteen, I saw Leon enter the classroom holding the hands of one of our classmates and for some reason I felt jealous of this girl.

After a few minutes he had left the girl's hand and I saw him approach me and my heart started to beat rapidly, next to me he took his place and told me that I would make a good girlfriend for him, after his sentence he got up and left without adding a word and I started to smile stupidly, He was very cute, and his smile made me melt, he had such a sweet look in which I drowned without trying to save myself, nor to resist him, so Leon put in me a beginning of love which was not going to be a success.

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You already know a part of my life now so I introduce myself I am Julia, young student of twenty three years old today and mother of a little boy, Emmanuel, I would like to tell you a little about my past and all my different love relationships as well as those who have marked me the most and who continue to mark me to our days, You know there are certain people that we meet in our lives and that impact us throughout our lives on earth, whether they are passing through or with whom we stay forever, everyone we meet increases a page in our book of life and the more people we meet the more the book tends to increase in volume.

Two weeks after Leon told me that I would make a good girlfriend for him, he didn't have my time, he didn't talk to me and he rarely cared about me, he showed no interest in getting to know me or putting into practice what he had said, He spent most of his break time with this classmate, they were in love everywhere and yet I wanted him already, I wanted him to have eyes only for me, I did everything to attract his attention and yet I seemed invisible to him.

So, to remedy this, with my two friends from that time, we decided that I would buy a chain and that I would offer it to him and ask him if he really wanted what he had told me weeks ago.

When I think about it today, I still wonder what possessed me to do such a thing, surely it was youthful love, oh yes surely, naive love.

When I brought the chain to Leon that day he seemed sad and he didn't expect to see me at all, or that I would come to discuss with him so I told him the reason of my coming to him that day and I wanted to offer him the chain but he told me that he was really not very fond of chains, but that he apologized for his reaction and that he was already taken with my classmate, even worse he told me that day he was just kidding.

The days that followed I was always nervous, I had a rage in me that had no name, he did not go back on his word and I saw them closer than ever and the worst was that he often spent a good part of his break with me before leaving later with her, I thought he was using me to make her jealous, and she kept taunting me, so one day when he came to see me I got up and left him there alone on the bench, he had tried to hold me back but I had escaped.

He started to laugh and the next few days he never came back to me.

I missed him terribly, I couldn't really stand his absence, I had already gotten used to him coming to stay with me and talking about everything and nothing, he didn't care about me anymore and as always.

One day during the break, when he was sitting alone in his place, I thought that it was the perfect opportunity to talk to him and ask him why he was sad.

I got closer to him silently and sat next to him and said hello, to my great surprise he got up and left without saying a word, or even answering my hello.

I had the shame of the century, his friends who were not far from us had started to laugh and with my last energy I had joined my place mad with rage.

Days later one of his friends was kind enough to come and talk to me and explain that the day I had decided to leave Leon alone in my place he had felt really hurt and moreover he had come to explain to me that he had not really been in a relationship with this girl and that it was nothing but flirting to make me jealous but that I had pushed him away shamefully in front of the class when he had come back to me.

So I started to regret my action and to think that maybe I had lost the only chance I had to be in a relationship with him.

The days passed and the weeks too, Leon had not approached me but he spoke much more to one of my friends who lived in the same neighborhood as him, to forget him and no longer feel sorry for myself, I agreed to see a boy from the same high school who was making advances, his name was Raoul, he was seventeen years old at that time, I was sixteen and Leon was seventeen too.

Raoul seemed to be a quiet boy, not very intelligent but rather nice, he came very often to see me in my classroom and we chatted, in short I did not really think too much about Leon, I wanted to better concentrate on my studies and on Raoul too if he was a little serious.

The days and weeks passed and the Christmas and New Year's celebrations were approaching, with Raoul we got along rather well, we even wanted to spend the end of year celebrations together, it was joy everywhere and Leon had started to talk to me again, he often came to see me at break time, we discussed and when Raoul arrived, he always greeted him very well before leaving.

A week later we were already on Christmas vacation and Raoul had invited me to spend the Christmas evening with him in a rather famous club in the city which welcomed young teenagers like us.

At that time my parents were very strict and didn't let us spend any time outside and even less at night for me and my older brothers, but this time I had broken the rules and I went out that evening to spend the evening with Raoul.

It was the first time we spent an evening in a nightclub, everything seemed cool and perfect, the air conditioning was soft and we could dance and do tricks in the room quietly.

With Raoul we were dancing and drinking at the same time, we held our beer in our hands and the atmosphere was good.

I saw the silhouette of a person who was very familiar to me pass in front of me, the person made turns in front of me and finally I saw the face of the person: it was Leon, he asked Raoul if he could take me with him for a few minutes but Raoul had answered him no, he did not intend to leave me for the moment.

With Raoul we continue to dance quietly but apparently Raoul also had a girlfriend that he hid well and Leon knew the existence, and moreover this girl was also in the room, Leon had just gone to call the girlfriend of Raoul who had landed like a rocket in the middle of the room and had dragged with it, I found myself alone in the middle of this room where everyone was in couple having fun.

I wondered what took these boys to lie more often, I was about to leave to go home when a hand had held me and dragged me with him.

When I looked at the silhouette I noticed Leon very well, he brought me out of the box and we placed ourselves on the balcony of this large room on the floor, the fresh air of the evening tickled our nostrils and outside everything seemed so calm while the music still resounded inside the box I found myself all troubled, he awoke in me so many feelings that I had known to repress until now, I started to observe him, I saw how beautiful he was, I looked at him from head to toe, he was dressed in blue jeans with a blue polo shirt on his feet, he had a pair of white tennis shoes, when he looked at me in the eyes, I had chills, wow he was cute, My heart started to race, I felt drops of sweat dripping down my face, and while I was there thinking about all the hassles he had put me through lately, he pulled me into his embrace and hugged me tight.

I don't know but I think that in his arms he could hear my heartbeat, my heart was on fire, I felt like I was suffocating, my breathing was abnormal and I couldn't speak or articulate a word.

When he released me from his embrace, I did not have any more courage to look at him in the eyes, he had raised my chin and we were there both to look at each other right in the eyes, I felt his breath crossing my body, I trembled like a leaf and I did not know when, but I felt a wet taste on my lips, he had just put his lips on mine, and still my breathing had just cut at the same time, I did not believe it, Léon had just kissed me.