Anonymous 2:0: How does it feels like to drown?, To be covered not in water, but with the blood of this damn life.. I have experienced that, and trust me when I say am an expert on everything that's bad, you name it: Murder, bullying, depression... Everything!, and I had decided to live with that...Oh god, I was fine living that way and literally thought that would be how the last years of my university would go, but fuck, I was so damn wrong immediately he appeared along, the pest, and the dumbass roommate, I have never wanted: That dickhead, LUCAS! LUCAS: As a student who won a scholarship during his third year to a new university, life's gonna be pretty hard, meaning I would have to catch up with the notes, lectures blah blah blah (You know the rest), but what I actually cared about was to make friends, get along with my new roommate, and graduate happily like any other happy ever after, but what the fuck happened?... All my dreams immediately crashed down when I moved in and met him...The university demon, MY DEAR ROOMMATE! Note: This is a bl novel, not straight, and some parts are dark, but don't let it scare you away, cause what's a novel without romance and spice?....
[Prepare you tissues darlings, you might need it]
...
"How does it feels like to burn, not in fire, but in hot dripping larva...
How does it feels like to be lost, with not a single sense of direction...
How does it feels like to want to tear your heart out, and rid of yourself of every single shit called emotions and feelings...
How does it feels like to be lifeless and feel at peace like that is what you always wanted
Not to go deep, What is the even the definition of peace?
What is love?
And what is happiness?...
I don't know all this things, and to say I have ever even felt it was when I was a kid, you know innocent and all naïve, but now?, now it is something forbidden, and rather replaced with the feeling of been buried in a water, the feeling of drowning, suffocating, dying, even though you are living
I knew it all too well...
A feeling that tore me apart, broke me into pieces, and made sure there was not any single remains left
A feeling that no fucking amount of shitty "Sorry" could ever heal, a feeling worst than any kind of pain, you name it: Gunshot, stabbing...This feeling like a wolf was the "Ultima", and it was this same poisonous feeling that got mixed into my blood, and turned the remaining part of me into a living dead, a demon, anything that was bad and wrong, you name it, and made emotions become nothing to me
The demons in me made love become something so far away, something that couldn't be found in my dictionary, something so unreal that the word "Love" looks like nothing but a lie...well it was, there was no fucking thing called love
[Sad huh?, I told you to prepare your tissues]
But this demons in me weren't satisfied yet, Nah...
This depressing self hating feeling broke me beyond repair that anyone, any freaking body in my shoes would chose to just end this ever lasting loop of suffering, and die at last....anyone but me even though I felt like I was living on hell.
Yes, at first I concluded that something was wrong with my logic for still choosing to stay alive in other not to please the shit of people that had hurt me: The bullies, the ex, every fucking one who had broke me, but now?, now I guess the reason I was still alive and wasn't dead was because of....HIM, the one that finally crossed path with a broken mess like me
Chapter 1 PROLOGUE: ANGEL OF HADES
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Chapter 2 A SPARK NOT REALLY...
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Chapter 3 A DEMON NO, THE DEVIL HIMSELF
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Chapter 4 365 DAYS WITH LUCIFER
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Chapter 5 SCREW YOU!
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Chapter 6 DON'T TALK ABOUT ME
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Chapter 7 PAYBACK
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Chapter 8 NOT A DEVIL AFTER ALL
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Chapter 9 WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME
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Chapter 10 BE MY FRIEND
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Chapter 11 HOW TO WIN A PERSON OVER 101
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Chapter 12 TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF
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Chapter 13 KISS
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Chapter 14 DNA SAYS I LIKE YOU
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Chapter 15 HAHAHA
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Chapter 16 CRUSH...ED
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Chapter 17 LARVA
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Chapter 18 LET ME GO, ELIAS
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Chapter 19 LOVE
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Chapter 20 BOYFRIENDS
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Chapter 21 LEGIONS
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Chapter 22 OXYGEN
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Chapter 23 A SHOULDER TO CRY ON
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Chapter 24 A SHOULDER TO RELY ON
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Chapter 25 ABYSS
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Chapter 26 CHARLIE
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Chapter 27 HEHEHE
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Chapter 28 LOVE...LESS
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Chapter 29 MR. MANIAC
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Chapter 30 YOLO
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Chapter 31 BROKEN HEART
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Chapter 32 BROKEN HEART 2
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Chapter 33 RED HEART
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Chapter 34 THE END....MAYBE
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Chapter 35 CHOICE
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Chapter 36 LOVE GURU
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Chapter 37 ALCOHOL AND ANGELS
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Chapter 38 DEAR TO ME
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Chapter 39 EPILOGUE : FALLEN
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